EXTANT

ex·tant

adjective

Still in existence; surviving. 

It's been about a year since I moved from a job that allowed me enough personal time for full creative freedom to a shitty, fully manual labor, life suck. I miss the life I had making things all the time. I was so dead set on turning Destructive Audio into something, but that has turned into a feeling of failure. Not selling a single item is hard on the ego. 

I've been on vacation all week and have found myself only wanting to rest. I can't turn off that part of my brain that panics about going back to work. I can't find it in me to work on things that I have been wanting to do since I scheduled my time off. I just want to be free again, but I fear that may never return. 

Tomorrow I'm going to see Pig Destroyer and really hope that can help take my mind off of things.

That's my quick update for now... I'll try to check back in before another year passes.